Juicy Women and Honesty

I love my Juicy Women's group. We met on Tuesday evening and Molly pulled the Honesty Rune. Does honesty, first with ourselves and then with others, get our juices flowing? I've experienced the truth of this as a resounding YES!

Lena checked in first and she had a bunch of that heavy mother/child stuff going on. It reminded me of the movie "The Namesake" that Jerry and I watched recently. It offered a great representation of that pulling away that children often do when establishing their own identities. Added to this seemingly natural course of separation between parents and their children, it can be exceedingly difficult to hold on to one's self when your child judges you and harbors resentment. Parents are imperfect beings just like everyone else, but children often judge their parents shortcomings much harsher than they would judge their friends and other acquaintances. The parent/child bond is so strong that it can intensify unreasonable expectations and hurt feelings when one or the other doesn't behave in the way we believe they should. Both sides can tend to make meanings that may not be valid. As Lena told her story I felt her pain. Over the years I've been through much of what she is currently experiencing and it's not fun stuff.

Randi is still celibate, it's been over two months now (which she embarrassingly says might not sound like a long time to us but it is for her) and it sounds fairly intense for her, but a positive experience at the same time. It's longer than I've ever gone without sex since I became activity sexual at the age of sixteen. She seems to be monitoring her behavior carefully, and rather than sexually"acting out" as she puts it, she is choosing to decline sexual opportunities because they just aren't the ones to say yes to at this time. Some of her acting out is still manifesting in over eating and she is yearning to be touched.

Pema arrived a bit late as she was out of town on a business/pleasure trip. One of her old clients is bank rolling her new business and she met with him to discuss its progress an also to enjoy one another's company eating yummy food and enjoying a Picasso exhibit at the MOMA. She is enthralled with art. She also mentioned her love for her partner as well as her increasing weariness of the pattern of their relationship.

Ana's been having several interesting experiences with men. She got some of that "no strings attached" (NSA) kissing she was craving. She's also been spending time with another man who on one hand she has no interest in cultivating a sexual relationship with, but on the other hand, is experiencing the intense enjoyment and subtleties of the exchange of sexual energy between them. She also had an interesting experience of hiring several men to work for her, running the show, feeding them, and lapping up their male energy and attention.

Molly shared something that stuck me in this profound way and for the life of me I can't remember what it was. Part of her story was about being in a really good space and then trying to keep herself from devolving into money worries and crankiness, ...I think. Sheesh.

Rosemary completed her sexual history. She talked more about her affair with the one and only woman she has ever fallen in love/lust with, her sexually loving triad with her husband and best friend, and the pleasures of threesomes and foursomes she had participated in. She also gave us an account of her sexual journey into polyamory as the intense spiritual path it has been for her. She spoke of her jealousy and control issues and how she has consciously worked to release herself and her husband from those shackles and how she has demanded the same from him. She spoke of the power of truth in her marriage and it's evolution into allowing privacy (not secrets) with her husband. There was also a brief mention of her toe dipping into BDSM. She is enjoying being whipped. A lot. Says it really helps to get her out of her head. She is living in more sexual freedom and power than she ever has in her life and feeling more than ready to take on some new experiences in the arena of love and sex.