Juicy Women--Ana's Story

Ana is the honored Juicy Woman for the month of July.

Ana's sexual history really struck me. She got very emotional at one point, angry and sad over how ill prepared young girls are to meet their blossoming womanhood. Her first sexual memory was at around the age of 3 or so, playing with the neighborhood kids. The brother was around her age and his sister, maybe six years old stuck sticks in her butt cheeks. There was no shame or fear about being bad, just curiosity.

She recalled spending the night at a fiend's house and seeing the father walk naked to the bathroom in the middle of the night. It was at this time that she first remembers feeling wrong. She was at fault for being awake and seeing what she saw.

She remembers liking to dress in a genderless fashion. Her mom made her wear a dress to school once a week and put barrettes in her hair. She had a hiding place where she would change into her pants and pull her barrettes out. One day the dog followed her to school and when mom came to retrieve the dog, she was busted.

When Ana found bloody pads in the bathroom garbage, wrapped in blue plastic, she opened them and was very curious as to their meaning. She took the pads to her mother, who rather than taking the opportunity to have a heart to heart talk about sex with her young daughter, she gave her a religious book that she thought would explain things. It failed miserably. Then,in 5th grade she saw that a film in school, probably the same one all of us girls were shown back then, with the diagrams of the woman and her fallopian tubes...


Around the age of ten her family moved from California to back east and it was a huge let down from what she had mentally prepared herself for. The original plan had been a move to London and the prospect of this, the excitement she felt was overwhelming for a young girl. But it was not to be. She recalls how her sense of fashion changed on the opposite sides of the continent. She transformed her sense of style and got into dressing sexy with platform shoes, low cut tops, and big loop earrings.

She told us of a date she had with several other boys and girls around the age of ten. They all went to the show together and then partnered off. She said that nothing sexual really happened on this adventure but she thought it naive of her parents just the same. I find myself curious as to her comment about this but I didn't question her. It was around this time that a boy she liked kissed her and she did not like that experience at all.

I loved the part about being late for school and while running up the stairs to her class she experienced her first orgasm. You go girlfriend. She didn't have a clue what had happened to her but it sure felt good.

Her sister was older than her and so there were always a lot of older guys around paying attention to her. She really liked the attention but wasn't sure what to do with it.

Later her family moved back to California and it was very disappointing for her to move back to her hometown but rather than being given the opportunity to reconnect with all of her old friends, they moved onto the opposite side of town and she attended a different school. Later, when she reunited with them in high school after spending so much time apart, it was very awkward for her.

At about the age of twelve Ana was spending the night at her aunt's house, enjoying some very sexual feelings in her sleep. She spread her legs to experience more of the deepening sensations. She awoke to find her cousin at the foot of her bed with his hand up under the covers, exploring her girl bits. He immediately left when she awoke and she was very shaken by this experience. She found herself transported into a strange escape adventure. It was the middle of the night but she had to get out of there. She walked out of the house and immediately saw a neighbor riding by in the dark on his bike. This particular person had many suspicious rumors floating around about his devious behavior. She left the house and started walking--she just had to get away. She headed towards a school where there was a phone booth. She wanted to talk with her mother. She hear noises there that scared her and so she walked on. She walked down the highway, ducking from cars on the side of the road as they drove past. She headed for a truck stop where there was a telephone. She just so much wanted to connect with her mother. When she arrived there, the area was so lit up that she felt vulnerable and unwilling to expose herself. She decided to walk back to her aunt's and go to bed. The next day she didn't tell anyone why she was stacking beer cans in front of her bedroom door in an attempt to keep herself safe. The cousin who had violated her kept asking her what was up, and if she was ok. Fucker. She was able to contact her mother and the next day she was transferred to her grandparents. She really just wanted her mom and to go home.

Later, has Ana matured, she didn't know how to handle it when men noticed her sexually. She remembered once, sitting in the car with her parents and making eye contact with a man. She was just looking and offering nothing more. This man walked over to her and put his hand on the car door handle. Her mother quickly rolled up the window but Ana was "given grief" over what she had done to encourage him.

Guys whistling and noticing her as she rode by them on her bike was unpleasant for her. She learned to quickly flip them of to regain her power.

Then Ana recalled a trip with her father. They were in some foreign country, I don't recall which one. She remembers men goggling her as she walked by with him. Her father ignored the situation and she felt unprotected and unsafe by his response.

To be continued.