Thursday, December 6, 2007

Knowing The Truth

I've been reading this book called, The Spiritual Path--Buddha Zen Tao Tantra by Osho. This quote is on the cover:
"Truth surrounds you. It is in the air, it is in the fragrance of the flowers, it is in the flow of the river, it is in the green leaves, it is in the stars, it is in the dust. It is in you."
Osho says that the word buddha means "awakened intelligence" and that the word buddhi, "intellect," comes from the same root word, budh and that there are at least five meanings to this word. One of the meanings of budh, or intelligence, is to know, to understand that which is. He explains the difference between understanding something, knowing it, and having knowledge or information about it. An intelligent person doesn't care so much about knowledge but wants to understand, to know something. First hand knowing is for the adventurous, those who are willing to move into the unknown. Secondhand knowledge makes your memory bigger but not your intelligence.

I think what Osho is talking about here is having a direct experience of the truth. This is what the Enlightenment Intensives with their dyad contemplation and communication technique are all about--intending to have a direct experience of the truth, or a direct knowing of the truth. This is called a breakthrough to enlightenment.
Osha tells this story:
A woman bought a tin of fruit but she could not open the tin. She did not know how to open it, so she rushed to her study to look in a cookbook. By the time she looked in the book and found the page and reference, and came rushing back ready to open the tin, the servant had already opened it. She asked, "But how did you do it?" The servant said, "Madam, when yo can't read, you have to use your mind."
There is something very important for me in this story. I tend to often depend on other things, seeking here and there for all sorts of tools to aid me while my mind sits idle.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

An Analysis of Bouquet



Joshua Bardwell offers An Analysis Of "A Bouquet Of Lovers".

Most anyone who is familar with the history of polymory will have read A Bouquet Of Lovers--Strategies for Responsible Open Relationships by Morning Glory Zell. You can find it in the appendix at the end of Bardwell's analysis or also by clicking here.





Pleiadian Polyamory


If you are bored or perhaps actually interested in channeled information on Extraterrestrial Sex, the history and evolution of their monogamous and nonmonagamous relationship styles then click here. It seems that polyamory is the norm for the Pleiadians!

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Check This Out

Wow. I found a new blog called Freaksexual. Check out Pepomint's post on November 27, 2007 called The Strange Credibility of Polyamory. This is a very thought provoking post as well as all the added comments--be sure to read them too. It's long so give yourself some time. Way worth the read though.

Check This Out

Here is an article on polyamory to ponder,Stranger Bedfellows by Mistress Matisse. I'm more into the "incestuous" relationships myself, theorectically speaking anyway.

Monday, December 3, 2007

A Lovely Weekend And A Crush

I had a lovely weekend. Saturday evening found us up in the foothills at one of our Burningman Peace Campmate's home, celebrating an afterburn gathering. Dinner was scruptious with Chioppino and homemade noodles along with other delectables and lots of wine, chocolate and port. We shared pictures and glowstick jewelery, enjoying one another's company. It was sweet and warm and just what I needed, reconnecting with everyone. It made me happy.

I've been bored lately. Probably the real reason for not blogging. Besides hitting the pavement running ever since our plane hit the tarmac, returning from our Thanksgiving trip back east. I've been going none stop but at the same time I've been feeling restless and unsettled. I have a tendency for boredom and it hit me with a vengeance last week. When I did have a moment to rest I couldn't write, or read or even knit. Zoning out in front of the television was about all I was capable of. I made a mess of my house had no interest in sex either. Until Friday night and the spell was broken. Jerry and I had some nice sexual encounters over the weekend (with each other)and that made me happy too.

Oh, and I have a new crush. I met a man this last summer and really enjoyed his energy and I recently had the opportunity to reconnect with him and I'm very attracted. That's a warm and yummy, excited feeling. And I started knitting and reading and cleaning my house again so I'm feeling back on track, my boredom subsided.

Christmas is coming. My family isn't exchanging gifts this year, thank God. On one hand I love gift giving and receiving and all and yet, especially with my big family, not only the expense, but the time and energy it takes to come up with something for everyone is too much. Besides I don't need more stuff. Who does? We will of course get gifts for the little ones and I actually went out and did that all in one day. I wasn't planning on shopping but I happened to be in a store the other day and I thought, hey, that is sweet... Jerry and I have 14 grandchildren and a niece. I got them all (except the two youngest who are still babies) cute little watches and gloves. Then I bought little Christmas bags to put them in so no gift wrapping either. I'm so proud of myself. Everyone will come to our house and I'll make Christmas Eve dinner for them.

Also, this year we are celebrating one of my nieces passing the bar. She graduated with her Doctor of Juris Prudence a year and a half ago and then passed the bar last January. I had promised her a family celebration but with everyone living so spread out we haven't been able to get us all together so I decided to throw this into the mix. We're all going in on a nice little gift for her.

Today I have several calls to make as I'm helping get the band and hall together for Gerda's memorial service which is looking like it will be next Sunday and Saturday. Saturday for the church service and Sunday for the dance party celebrating her life.

Sunday, December 2, 2007

Gerda's Passing


My friend Gerda died last night. She was at home with her family and friends. I have a Marzipanstollen (German Fruit Cake with Almond Paste filling) that I picked up, hoping to take by for a visit today. I'll save it for her memorial/celebration of life. Goodbye Gerda. Thank you for all of your sweet gifts, for sharing yourself, your love with me. Here are a few words from an email Gerda sent to me and others awhile before she died:
I will go soon "home", Please do not cry or be sad for me. The time is right here now for me . I will be more happier. So please be also happy for me."

I cry for myself Gerda, and I am happy for you.