Tell Me What Another Is

These stories are a portal to myself. I write for my own pleasure while intending to offer a value to others. I tend to focus on alternative relationship styles but those in more traditionally structured relationships are welcome too. I believe the most significant relationship we have is with ourselves. Discovering self through Another beckons me. Currently, I'm particularly curious about spirituality, sexuality, polyamory, communication, compersion, contemplation, and truthtelling.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Knocked For A Loop

So much sadness I can't sleep. Yesterday it oppressed me like a heavy blanket. I attempted to just be with it without attaching stories. The tears kept running down my face as I moved throughout my day. The reasons are obvious. My son. My mother. My granddaughter. K. It's been over a year since K. told me he wasn't sexually attracted to me and didn't want to be my lover and I still haven't gotten over it. And yet I'm not really depressed over that. The disconnect I experience with him sometimes just knocks me for a loop.

3 comments:

Pagan Topologist said...: What happened with your son?; July 17, 2012 at 12:49 PM
Pagan Topologist said...: If I could figure out how to send you some undiluted joy, I would do so.; July 17, 2012 at 12:50 PM
I AM ANOTHER said...: Thanks Pagan. I feel the joy along with the sadness. My son...a long story. I'll share it with you sometime.; July 17, 2012 at 10:07 PM